Fantasy Life (Live Demo)

by Jade Barbee

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Original version (1998) was unfinished. 20 years on, this is more of what the song was meant to be, even if I didn't know it at the time.

It's about a need for forgiving the past, saying goodbye and moving on.

I was quite literally creating the piano part as I was recording it. I'm curious how the song will evolve in future recordings.

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Fantasy Life Lyrics

I've been lousy, I've been a snake
Seeking approval's never gone my way
How could I believe what I did was right?
I'd turn it around if I'd had the sight

I've sown this, I've sown that
I've made a dress, I've made a hat
When it feels like life's just slipping away
And it doesn't feel very OK

A sure sign of a fantasy life in action
With the requisite falling apart at the seems
There was ever such a deep deep sadness
And I put my finger on all this badness
I can't... if my thoughts are extreme

<interlude>

It comes in the morning light
When the sun's rising high in the sky
The feeling is of horror I've lost the plot
And the warmth that was my spirit is forgotten
And replaced by fear
Just disappear
My soul's on the wreckage of those summer nights
Where I'd be trying to escape the dreaded clutches of automaton
And it's hard

A sure sign of a fantasy life in action
Records are falling apart at the seams

There was ever such a deep deep sadness and
I put my finger on all this badness
I can't...
There was ever such a deep deep sadness and
I put my finger on all this badness
I can't...
There was ever such a deep deep sadness and
I put my finger on all this badness

I can't... say goodbye

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released October 5, 2018
Words and Music by Jade Barbee

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Jade Barbee

Jade Barbee is a writer, singer, EFT practitioner/educator, collaborator, and former showgirl.

"I write songs and make pictures to make sense of my experiences, and to tell empowering stories - better ones than I may have told myself once upon a time." – Jade

Drawings by Jade Barbee

Photo by Candace Blankenship ... more

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